Currently Listening Tell All Your Friends By Taking Back Sunday see related

summers end

well here we are agian .... school is only too close

idk i feel as if yet again i have wasted a summer  but not in all acounts

in one way i have truelly learned many things bout myself and others

but i have also sat around and played halo and guitar for 2 months lol

idk a couple of my friends who i  thought would always be there have in some ways

abandoned me leaving me all alone

but in the same light i have come too find who my true friends are.

As for myself i have become and even more relaxed person i have also become hmm...

more optomistic i guess you could say which is truelly amazing 4 me since i have always

been a pestimistic cynical kinda person but not i look 4 the positive too the highest

extent possible i have come too care less and less about pettie fights and trivial

things of the short well at least the things tht i see as pettie and trivial

Girls well at the begging at the summer my ex left 4 vriginia with some feelings kinda just

dangling about. And her swearing that she would never be able too move on and such

and me just left here kinda idk in a very wierd position. And now i find myself at the end

of summer and we have drifted apart serverly which is pretty sad cuz i truelly do care bout

her and would love too be a good friend of her's but i suppose tht isnt were we ended up

but then idk she is coming back and im pretty cuiroius too see how she feels if she has

moved on and forgotten or if she still "loves" me. IDK there have been some girls tht think

im hott or w/e but i havnt really wanted too date i pretty much decided early on too wait

till school too see were life takes me and it has lead me a path i can not understand lol

in other words im still confused as too if i want too date ne1 or jsut stay single lol

ooo and i decided too stay in drama idk i just came too that decisoin randomly

lol. but back too topic as far as girls go im still lost in were im going too go and how

i will get there. But as mean as this sounds im more than sure tht there is nothign more

than friendship in the path of me and kristin. but besides tht im pretty much fucked

Music ... well this is were i lay dissapointed i have always played music with chabachein

and philip since day one its been us against the world

and 4 a while we were all tht was left but jsut recently philip has left the side of me and

sebastein too persue other musical endevouirs which left us drummerless soo

me and sebastein did all that we could do which is try and find another band too

throwdown with and idk i feel as if this new band im in ..... secret band im in .... lol

could be truelly amazing if and only if we dont fuck it up lol

i also feel liek i have been at the bottom and i have been working at this 4 a good while

once your at the bottom thers no directoin but up ....

well

laters

brandon

Currently Listening Good Apollo, I'm Burning Star IV, Volume One: From Fear Through The Eyes of Madness By Coheed & Cambria WELCOME HOME see related

hmm... well summer is here and its pretty lame well its ok

liek nothing bad is happening but then again nothing good is ether lol

idk kristin left which is kinda sad but good in some ways

last night she was talking  about how she was gonna wait 4 me too come around

cuz she only wants me and i told her not too wait tht , i may never  come around

and i told her too move on and she said she wouldnt it was just an ongoing thing

im pretty sure she will eventually get lonely again and do somting with another dude

but on a happier not ima sexxxi lol

fuck philip got in trouble and it fucked up the whole band liek we have no drummer

its a bitch we need too start writing too record so we can get somware

in all honesty i dont think i will ever get into a decent college and i dont think i have ne

ambition too work labor liek if music doesnt pan out ima gonna be haveing too

mooch of kate so yea

idk

well

laters

brandon

Currently Listening Pablo Honey By Radiohead CREEP see related

hmm... life has been good ima pretty happy with things right now

theres still lots of shit going down though and so lil time

i wish i didnt have ambitions or commitments

or just a overall knowing of wat is right and just feelings lol

cuz they just fuck lots of things up

idk me adn kristin broke up 4 liek idk  4 hours i think idk

i dont wanna make ne decisons regarding wat ima do  in the summer cuz i promised her

i wouldnt but idk i feel as if i already made my decsison and ima not one to go back and

changes things i already siad so idk

and if we do break up in the summer i am gonna feel liek shit cuz we do stuff and i dont

think we should cuz wat if we dont get back together afters summer or if she does

do somting overs summer or if i do  liek

then tht just make our realationship a big piece of shit so idk

and hten i kinda wanna get back together with my old band welll actually i

just wanna get back together with sebastien and phlip we created art together but

idk if ne of us are willing too get back together dylan is all 4 it but he just wnats a band

in general so idk

well i think ima just gonna see were life takes me and fuck it

well

laters

brandon

Currently Listening The Young and Hopeless By Good Charlotte wondering see related

hmmm... wowo not much has been going down cept idk kinda being unhappy with life

and all tht jazz which sounds pretty emo

but i mean it could be worst i could be cutting my wrist in the corner lol

idk i just havnt been feelling very happy just like blah and i have been looking into

being homeschool

or taking online courses tht way i dont have too go to school nemore

well

laters

brandon